The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

Twenty One, Tower is Gone, Heart Is Renewed.
Listening to: Videogame Remixes from OCREMIX.

I have a lot to catch up on as usual.

The week of my birthday was awesome. Saturday I went to a wedding with Elise. Heh heh heh. OPEN BAR! I also made both my hands into Popes using the napkins the had on the table. Elise kept yelling at me. *snicker*

After the wedding, her and I drove to Shelby for my family birthday party the next day. When we got there, my bro had a bunch of friends waiting for my arrival. Needless to say, he got me alcohol for my birthday, and we went out to the woods. Elise has never been out there. We had a good time and I saw Nessa too! I miss her. She wil always be one of my angels.

The next day, I woke up to my aunt mowing the lawns, and Elise and I chilled. Cody and I went out fourwheeling, ran out of gas in the woods, and eventually got back home.

When the party started, we had more people show up than we had planned. Friends I haven't seen in a year. It was amazing. It is nice to know, even when I move away and come back home, I still have this great legion of [eM followers].

My Mom really did make it an awesome party though. She made Tacos, and two cakes!!!! German Chocolate, and Cream Cheese Spice. MMMMMMM. It was the most memorable birthday for sure.

Mom gave me money, as did Grandma and Grandpa. Aunt Angie and Jody got me a fifth of coconut rum, buttershots and tequila rose. Joe gave me money and liquor! WOOT!

During the end of the party, I took cody outside with the wooden katanas and started showing him how to sword fight. The kid learns fast, and almost delivered the coup de grat (???) to me a few times. I played the defense and told him to attack me as if he wanted to actually hit me.

I love that kid to death. I am so proud of him. He has scored higher that his class on a lot of his subjects in school. We talk all the time, on the phone and online. He uses his gmail account I made him, and we use the built in chat system to chat.

ANYWAYS! After the party, Elise and I and Cody went to Crystal Lake and we swam out to the middle for a while, than swam back. Good times... good times.

The next day was a relax day. Elise and I went out to the Oval before we headed back to GR. It was beautiful out there as I expected it to be. I ran into so many people from my past, it was nice to feel like I still feel the past.

The following days were pleasant. I got my home fix. That following week my phone broke though. Grrrr. I went in to the phone store to see what I had to do to get another phone. They told me I was eligable for an upgrade after 18 months. When they checked, they said that day marked 18 months for me. WOW. Sweet timing. SO I got my new phone, but sadly lost a lot of numbers.

That Friday, I was working my stupid two hour shift and Rachel, a girl from college came in and as usual, we talked. She put her new cell phone number into my phone, and told me I should come into her work while she is working to have coffee and the such. Now, I was going to do this last time she came into the library. When she called my phone to leave her number on the call ID, I was out of service I guess (it was in my locker). I never got her number, therefore couldn't call her, and never ended up going. This time though, she started her shift just as I got off of mine. I decided I would.

Her and I were talking of good books, and she recommended Ender's Game to me. I figured, ah what the hell, I will try it out. I checked that, and a programming book out, left work, and went and visited her at the Mezze/San Chez. I ordered my coffee, sat down and started reading. She kept smiling at me from accross the room.

Something only a few people know is I have had a crush on her since Greenwood's class, first semester. Infact, in a previous journal entry I may have mentioned her as the girl at McDonalds who hooked me up with food. ^_^

When she finished work, her and I decided to get dinner at Jimmy Johns, and then went back to my place to have some vodka. Her, Dave and I sat around drinking, watching movies and having a good time. Well one thing led to another, and we hooked up that night. Since then, we have been inseperable. I talk to her about everything, and I try to get her to open up as much as possible to me. She is a pretty closed book, but it is more of a low self esteem thing I think.

Since then, we have practically lived together. Either my place or hers. She cooks for me too! A few mornings she made pancakes, and a few nights she made some really great dishes. On our free time, we have been reading, talking, playing pokemon, hanging out, surfing the net, or she watches me play videogames while she does her own thing. Life is good.

She just recently got a second job. I am glad for her. Being a semi-self supportive independant in college newely in the big world of adulthood is tough. I have been applying around for about two months now. I even was selected along with 2 others for a promotion interview. Sadly I didn't get it though. Seniority over ruled. Good for Roger though. He deserved it because he has slaved as a page for a few years now, and hasn't ever missed a day of work.

I went home the following weekend and saw the family for Father's Day. Saturday, I took Joey and Chris out to the oval. All three of us went out there without sunscreen. After only a few hours, we were all sunburned, wind burned and sand blasted bloody red. Joey has second degree burns, where as I have first, and Chris, the lucky bastard just got a minor sun burn. Last year same thing happened to me. You think I would learn. HA. Right.

Oh yeah I saw Molly too. Not much to say there. That's a book I have closed and don't really care to read into. I know how everything ends and frankly I didn't like the ending. If it would have ended differently... maybe softer, than I wouldn't really mind. Let me put it this way. You are enjoying a nice tall shake. A perfect shake, and right when you get to the bottom you find a dead mouse. It makes the whole experience seemingly vanish and replaces it with disgust. This last month, I found the mouse.

I am not saying I won't be her friend, but I refuse to be toyed with or watch my friends be toyed with. I would like to be her friend but for now, I am not making any effort into keeping this friendship alive when I am not entirely sure what the hell she wants out of it. We'll see where the scenario ties into life later on.

Besides, if her and I hadn't ever ended I wouldn't have found who I truly to believe one of my destined soul mates out there. A Kirsten Dunst look alike, Pokemon playing, Spider Man absessed, jewelry design major, artistically inclined with the heart of an angel. Her heart is as corrupted as mine, BUT she cares for others and me with love, respect and dedication. Another thing I like about her is she smokes and drinks. So when I am sitting with Dave having a cigar and a rum, she doesn't bitch at me, she joins in! That means when her, Mom and I all go out to coffee, we can all sit, smoke and talk. Which leads me to a major kudos about her.

She LOVES Egyptian type things. On her lower back she has a tattoo of a lotus flower (which is Egypts flower) and in the center of it is the Eye of Horus. Around her neck she wears a gold necklace with the Ankh of Life pendant. This is a kudos because My mom too is obsessed with Egyptian type things. The fact that she is a sweet girl capable of not being sneaky and a liar, sets her pretty damn good in my Mom's book. If she is right off with the most important woman in my life, than she is [eM] approved. I decided to start listening to my Mom's opinions on things because she is usually right (not always, don't let it go to your head Mom ~_^).

While she sits online, she talks with Cody, and he is thrilled by this. She has taken to those in my life so well, it amazes me. I love it. I love the fact she isn't jealous of Elise. Elise approves of her too. She gave a ring she made to Elise and needless to say, Elise was as happy as a monkey screwing a football. >,<

Dave likes her too. Infact, I don't know anyone who doesn't like her. Oh my sweet angel.

Well, Ender's game was fantastic. A book I would definetly read again. I immediatly picked up the parallel novel Ender's Shadow to start reading about one of the other characters. In need to get Rei and Mom to go to the book store for reading and coffee here sometime. That would kick.

Oh man, another tangent. Ok, so before going to the oval, I woke up to Joey screaming "THE TOWER!" I awoke to see that the tower was being torn down. I watched a chunk of my heart get destroyed. My most favorite spot in the world... gone. A monument of my childhood. Of my Mother's childhood. Torn down because of our new neighbor complaining about us "kids" going up there. He convinced Wiks that it was a liability issue. BOOM, they destroy it. In comes a great thing in my life and out goes another. Typical. Rei never got to experience it. #(&$#$&@ Just earlier Cody tells me "THE CHIMENY IS GONE!" WTF WTF WTF. THOSE FUCKING BASTARDS!!! Another monument that made those woods unique... GONE. How many woodlands can you walk into and find a 30 foot tall chimeny standing in the middle of it? NONE. I guess this is a sign that my childhood has ended. I always thought I would be able to show my kids the tower and the house foundations. I guess I will only be able to tell them of it. For shame.

This week I started my new position at the library. I work delivery now. Head guy of delivery left and I figured I needed more hours. So I switched. My work shift is now Monday - Thursday, 1-5, and alternating Friday and Saturday, 9-1. I get to listen to music, talk and hang out with Ben, and listen to books on CD. Rockin!

I need to figure out how I am makning rent this month. I hope I can go home this weekend and work with Don. It would save my ass. If not, I am going to have to talk to Mom. Damnit... this new job will help straighten things out in a few weeks. Thank God.

Speaking of God... Charity gets married in about a month. DAMN. Josh is also leaving for college in Indiana.

I have decided after college, I am moving out of country to settle down. To Ireland. Rei had the same plans, so hopefully we will still be together, and we will go together. By then, Mom should have her island (she is going to become a Millionare somehow) and I will be such a wealthy artist from my business plan that I can afford to travel home to see everyone.

It has taken a long ass time to type this. Close to two weeks. Futher Mucker. I am such a put off.

I think I will head to bed now. Just thought I would update on being 21, growing out of childhood and my new skater chick heart throb. I am sure I am forgetting something but that pillow is distracting me.

Blogged by Marcus Morris at 7:42 PM