The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

Halloween Weekend
Listening to: Everyone discuss what will happen to MS75.

Man alive... an update is due.

I talked to Molly on the phone the other day. She said something that really stopped me in my tracks. She still loves me somehow, but she just wants me to be happy. I don't know why hearing that stopped me, but it did. I am kinda upset at her for getting involved in her old problems again. Involved with guys who do shit she told me she didn't want me doing. The difference? We were together, she just benefits with them. Ugh, I hope that Aarron kid gets what's coming to him, and I hope she realizes the human heart isn't a thing to toy with. She of all people should know what it's like to be broken hearted because of actions like her current ones. Birds of a feather, stick together. Go figure, she leaves Lakes, and starts a sorta fling with atleast 3 guys all at once. From the stories I have heard, and the shit she told me was said about her, I can only guess it was all true. Things didn't change. Well the school and this time, the guys are older.

Ugh, I am so bitter towards her, yet, I know I still love the her I fell in love with. Does anyone know what it is like to be called by the one you love because "I had no one to talk to, so I decided to call you."? *SLAP IN THE FACE* Gee, thanks woman! I am just good for your entertainment when you don't have anyone kissing your ass. Is that what that means? Aiy, especially when she is the one who really wants the friendship to work, but yet, only contacts me when no one else seems interested in her. That's all I feel like I was this last 2 years anymore. I know I wasn't the cutest guy on the block, but God Damnit, I took care of her, I was honost with her, and I was always loyal to her. I always tried to be the best boyfriend. Apparently I wasn't good enough for her. She gets guys who fill her appatitie there now, and discards her old teddy bear.

Ok now that I have got my bitching out of the way, I guess I will start on my weekend. Danielle couldn't come Friday like planned. She was gonna show up Saturday afternoon, but this turned into Saturday night because of plans going wrong with certain situations. I fell asleep and awoke at 9:45 to her outside beeping my apartment. I let her in, and gave her a big hug. Everyone else went to Ty and Trea's party already. We were both hungry so we walked and got Pizza. The woman wouldn't let me pay. She convinced the girl working the counter ( a fellow KCAD student too....) to let her pay. Ugh. So I let her, and then I went and bought pop because I purposely left it out so she couldn't buy it. We enjoyed our dinner with each other, and then went to the party. OMG.

So the party cast was Charlie (the russian from KCAD), Amanda S, Treant and his gf Amanda, Tyler, Dave and Kelli, Marshall (Trea and Ty's gay uncle), one of Trea and Ty's friends, Me, and Danielle. Kelli must've had like 5 shots of "dirty girl scouts" and I ended up having 12 shots, a yeagar bomb, half a beer, a cup of vodka, and a yeager, mint things mix double shot. Danielle had a few shots and a beer. Dave and Charlie were well drunk before I got there. So were the twins and both Amanda's. I think that is the first drinking party that I have really been to where it was more then just about drinking. I mean, we all had a blast. Danielle and I walked Charlie home, then her and I went home and went to bed ourselves.

We didn't awaken till the next day around 11:30. That's after the time change back. We then woke up, laid and watched TV together, and decided to go to Meijer to get food. She spoiled me rotten. ^_^ I wanted to go to Taco bell. We went in, and BOOM, before I could get my debit credit card out to pay, she was shoving me backwards and paying. I was like "GOD DAMN YOU WOMAN LET ME PAY!!!" She laughed at me and said "Nuh uh." -_-' Why do the girls I get interested in always wanna pay?

We came back, cuddled while watching movies, and occasionally, I picked up my homework. Later, we went to MS and met everyone. Sitting there, we got the munchies bad. So we went and all got McDonalds and then came back and talked about the party the night before with everyone else. Wow, time really does fly by when we are all together.

Before we knew it, it was late. Danielle and I headed back to my apartment, playe don the computers and videogames. I was playing guitar for a while as well. I played the Balamb Theme Song from Final Fantasy VIII. Then Danielle goes "Hey wait, that's the song from Final Fantasy... Balamb Garden right?" I was like "OMG, I AM GOING TO MARRY YOU WOMAN!"

This still totally blows my mind about her. I cannot believe she knows videogame music, and listens to it often like me. *sigh* Pro's and Con's to every relationship I guess. You can't have one thing without sacraficing the other I guess.

I put Boondock Saints in, and she fell asleep ten minutes into the movie. I figured as much would happen. SHe was extremely tired. We slept all day, and I emailed work sick. I could barely swallow my own saliva or water. We laid in bed all afternoon and watched Boondock Saints over. Then we watched some TV, ate food, and more lounging around.

Trick or treating... we didn't do it. Instead, Danielle put eyeliner and eye shadow on my and I waltzed around in my outfit from last year... with one difference. Insanely long hair that covers my eyes, nose and ears. Flipped outword. So I looked like a genuine creature of the night... or to some, an EMO-Kid. Bastards.

Sadly, she went home last night. I awoke this morning sad because of her absense. We talked last night though. I asked her where we were going with this. I knew right now, with her being in Shelby, and working 40+ hours, and me only coming home sometimes on the weekends for only a day or two, a relationship was not possible. That is the only thing restricting us right now. But if she enrolls into GVSU for spring and DOES move here, she said we are hooking up for a fact. So until then, I am single, until something or someone else comes along and grabs my attention. Right now, I think of only 2 others outside of Danielle that could grab my attention. Doubt that would happen though.

In sad news though, MorningStar 75 is closing. Thursday this last week is it's last night. Right now, we are all devising a plan to get a business loan, and buy the place, and run it ourselves. We all have some special talent we will attribute to making this place what it has been, and better. The owner is a complete asshole, and all we have to do is get him to relinguish his death grip on this building with a small sum of 30K. Dave, Steve and Phil are all heading this up. They all are going to invest into this place. No body is taking our place away from us. Fuck them. This place is a home to so many. The lady from Goonies comes in here every morning to buy coffee.... $400 a month they say she spends on average. That is a fricken shit load. From one customer. So he can't say he isn't making any money off this place. I am sure I have spent my good share here as well.

Oiy, I am sick as all hell right now. Medicated. So I might be heading to bed here in a bit. Night y'all.

Blogged by Marcus Morris at 7:27 PM