The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

The Best Weekend In A Long Time
Listening to: Trapt - Someone In Control Album

I had a great weekend. Life is going back to being good. Really nice, because I was really getting upset at everything.

Let's see where do I start? Hmmm... Ok well, Thursday I went to Jessie's with my neighbor Matt, and we hung out there for quite a while. I passed out in her room, half on her bed, and Matt woke me up to say "Let's go back." I stayed there instead.

The next day, Friday, I woke up and went to school, just to find out my only class for the day was canceled. The class I was going to originally skip to see Molly. Well, that was cool, so I went out to lunch with Jessie and ate her chilly cheese fries. It is amazing what you will eat when you're hungry. I then went to work, for a whole 2 hours.

After work that night I was in a college movie. I took the bus to the mall, and then walked to the middle school to meet Aubrey. Aubrey is a girl that started working at the library the same day as me. Megan, Shelby's other pastors daughter, whom I sorta dated in between Sara and Charity, and Charity and Molly, and who I took to my Senior homecoming, moved away. Her and Aubrey at one point were best friends at her new school. So anyways, I hung out with her, played a part in the movie, rode the bus back, and talked to Molly on the way back.

Saturday, I went to work, came home, and the entire apartment was empty. It feels so nice to have privacy again. I love Anime Dave, and I love Amanda, but sometimes, I need my privacy so I am sociable later on. I sat around waiting for Kevin, to see if we were going back to Shelby. It got late and he didn't call back. Zach then calls me, and says "I'm in Muskegon, I will come get your ass and bring you back to Shelby." Muskegon is about the halfway point so he came and got me and we drove back together.

We talked for a while, then my phone rang. It was Molly. She was telling me about her day at home, and we carried on a civil conversation. No fights, some hidden pain of course, but we talked like we used to. It was nice. I didn't want to get off the phone with her, but I wanted to talk to Zach on the last 20 min. of our drive. So I got off the phone with her, got some McyD's, and continued home. We talked about our problems, and stupid things that have happened recently.

Danielle couldn't hang out that night after work. She had to go to her mothers and do something, so we made arrangements to hang out before I left, and before she worked on Sunday. Well, she never showed up. Some things came up and happened differently then she expected. She felt like crap and said she wanted to spend time with me after work that night and she was going to drive me back to Grand Rapids herself before I had work on Monday.

This totally made my weekend the best it has been in a long time. When she got out of work, we all loitered around outside of Wesco. Danielle, Brad, Catherine and I, the Wesco worked possy, and Justin. Afterwards, Danielle came back to my moms house with me. Everyone was playing cards, and you couldn't have more then 4 people in that game. So Danielle and I went into the basement to play videogames. I fall for that woman more and more every time I swear to God. She beat me in every round of Super Smash Brothers, and in Pokemon, just before I could beat her, the game reset on its own. While playing videogames, I was laying on the mattress, and she was in chair. Halfway through the gaming session, she came down and laid under my arm. After Videogames, we decided to turn the lights off and go to bed. She slept in my arms all night. She ran her fingers through my hair too. OMG, pure, utter heaven. Everything that followed that... was like one great dream.

Everything that happened. I won't say here, but she makes me feel comletly different. I felt something that night that was different from the past. The feelings... the emotions. We learned so much about each other that we didn't expect. A lot of it was first times when it came to the experiences and discovery's. We also talked about what was going on between us. We aren't a couple. In fact, we aren't "dating" parsay. We are really close, and the feelings are quite obvious. We came up with really close friends, with those special benefits. Untill, we decide what's up. So in a way, we are both single, but I know I am really not looking now. I think I found the only other person I want to fill the void from Molly.

She said so much to me that night that made me feel better. She made me feel that "they" were fools for giving someone like me up. She said I was the most passionate person she has been with. We felt wanted, needed, and in place. Who knows what will happen with us in the future. A relationship may happen, but right now, we both decided it wouldn't be good.

She is planning on moving down here in the spring, to attend GVSU. Kelli goes there, and her and Danielle have been acquainted. Danielle is going to get an apartment, so I am shopping for her right now. I would love it if she lived here in the Highland Apartments with us.

When we awoke the following afternoon, we both showered and got ready to head to GR. I called into work, and scheduled my hours for Tuesday and Thursday after school to make up for not working. I wanted to spend more time with her. The whole ride back we enjoyed each others company, and told stories from our past. When we arrived back in GR, her and I stood outside and had a smoke before coming in.

We downloaded the entire Trapt soundtrack, and some Final Fantasy music. She likes videogames and videogame music. That is a woman after my own heart. With my new CD burner, I burned her a few CDs with the game music, and other songs. She watched almost all of my music videos and she really liked them. What is so great though, was we talked about Anime and and Videogames, and she knew every scene from my videos. Her favoritr DBZ character is Piccolo. Her favorite FF character is Squall. This whole time I was clung to her, like a kid on a new toy.

She is very playful. VERY. Her favorite pass-time is to get me on the ground, screaming, crying and struggling as she tickled me to tears. She knows about cars, she loves dirt biking and 4-wheeling, she is a hard worker, and she has a very serious side to her when she needs to. She is the country girl that I never really dated, even though I was looking. She hates and loves Shelby the same as I do. She has been on her own since like 17 as well. She is also the first girl I have ever had anything with, that is older then me. Almost 3 months exactly. Her birthday is February 21. On my 21st birthday, she said she is getting me so drunk and having her way with me. *laugh* Yeah, like alcohol needs to be involved.

This is all the stuff I learned this weekend alone. She made me completly forget about my problems, and pain. I like that. I need that. It was Monday, the day that my $1,800 tuition payment was due, or I wouldn't be in college anymore. Did I care? Yeah I did, but when I was with her, it didn't bother me. Of course, that day I got a letter in the mail saying I got the loan I needed. ^_^ All was well in the world again.

I walked her back down to her car around 9pm that night. Our goodbyes are always so hard for me. I get lots of kisses and tight hugs out of it. Everytime we depart, I feel lonely. I feel like next time I see her, things won't be the same between us. That I would "loose" her. I guess it should be a normal feeling for me though. Instinctive fear from past pain and loss. How do you loose something that isn't your's though? When I was with Molly, I honostly never believed any of this was ever going to happen. I had no intention for it. Sure I have always had a crush on her. Before Molly that started. But who doesn't have crushes? It's whether or not you let those crushes cross a line or become a threat, and I never let Danielle come in between Molly and I. Even when Danielle was always telling me to leave her because of the situation from last summer. Oiy, went off in a tangent again.

She left, and I called her to make sure she made it home safely. We talked for a while and then did our things for the night.

I got my grades for the midterms. I have to talk to my Drawing 1 teacher about my grade. I am a bit confused on the C+ I got. I have got nothing but Excellents and Good job's! A's in other words. Why C+? Did she miss me while taking attendance a few times? She loved me. She is one of my favorite teachers and she calls me by my name outside of class. Tomorrow I find out about my Art History Mid-term.

Tonight, I got out of work. Long day. 8:30AM-9:00PM. I came home, played Diablo II online for an hour and then walked to the Gas Station to buy a drink and a Black and Mild cigar. As I was leaving the apartment, Danielle called me and she talked to me the whole way there, and the whole way back. She was worried about me getting shit from the bums. ^_^ *sigh* Make it to Saturday, and I can see her. I am kidnapping her after work that night because Sunday she doesn't work.

Zach is coming to GR on Monday, so I will be staying till Monday afternoon in Shelby. I just have to be back in time for work at 4PM. He is staying for a few days here in GR. Then Danielle is coming down the following weekend for a few days. We have a date on Halloween. If everything goes like planned, this is going to be the best 2 weeks in a long time.

When I got back to Morning Star from the gas station, I let Danielle go so she could do some grocery shopping. I hung out with Phil, Dave and Amanda. Dave, Phil and I learned how to pick locks. It is so cool. I know how to pick basic locks now. I have been practicing all night on the portable lock we are using. This weekend, we will learn Bolt locks and door knobs. Accuired New Skill! Lock Picking Skill +1!

So yeah. I am gonna go to bed now. I have class then work tomorrow. Then projects I have to get done for Thursday. I just figured I was past due for a happy post.

Blogged by Marcus Morris at 1:13 AM