The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

Just Typing What's On My Mind
Listening to: Video Game Music Remixes

With winter comes many great things. The first snow, holiday cheer, warm fuzzy feelings, love, memories, toys, giant meals, family and vacation. The one thing I dread though about winter is winter weight. It's always so cold out that I can't go running. I run untill my body is drenched in sweat then I come in, take a break and go downstairs and do an hour of aerobic excersizes. This kept water weight off. It also helped shed weight. But winter is evil because:
+ You start to get de-hydrated and this causes your body to store water and puff up.
+ When it's colder you become hungry and you crave things that is bad for your weight, such as chocolate, egg nog, cocoa, large warm meals, and other fatty foods. Who knows why....?
+ Being "the weather outside is frightful" you stay inside and sleep and relax and do the point above.
+ The days seem to become shortened and this also shortens daily activities where you would burn energy.

= Weight gain and yoyo effect puffyness = bad = winter being evil.

Winter falls there with women. Yes you heard me right. Women are evil. They can't make up their minds on what they want and when they figure it out, it's the dumbest thing.

My girlfriend plans on hanging out with Scott again this week. -_- oh joy. I am a member of the anti-scott saxton fan club. Molly's best friend and I formed it. Anyone who wants to join leave your name on the comments. Last time he was up was thanksgiving and when he left she told me she didn't feel comfortable hanging out with him. She also assured me with it being busy christmas break so she wouldn't get to see him. Of course my heart lays to rest AGAIN for 3 weeks before it's woke up with a stab wound. Tonight on the phone she said she likes him as an online talk every now and then friend. psssh, I wonder how long that will last. Why can't these ex's go away. Molly and Scott didn't officialy go out but they did more then her and Mark did together so I count it as him being her unofficial boyfriend and former love. By former I mean immediatly before me and during me. Some people still fail to see my problems with him. I have never officialy met the guy but other then the facts that her friends don't like him, he actually looks like a weasle, and he told me how much he has always wanted to have an intimate relationship with her... he really hasn't given me a reason to like him. So I made a:

Reasons I Hate It When Molly Hangs Out With Scott List:
- She act's different.
- She loves Scott enough to make him a threat. He is more then a friend to her. He isn't even like a brother to her. He is more.
- He can get her to lie to me and do things with him she shouldn't. He has proven this. I have yet to trust her totally with that.
- Every time it's something like "I don't think we are gonna hang out anymore. I don't feel comfortable with it." And just when I think she means it she persues to hang out with him.
- He has taken her to see movies that WE were gonna see together... last time I watched a movie Molly watched already I didn't exactly get to enjoy it and neither did Molly. There are two movies that JUST came out and I want to see them with Molly. I forgot to mention it on the phone tonight so chances are they are going to go see them before I can tell her. *sigh*

On top of my troubles I can now safely order tickets to go to Molly's house. A ticket from Grand Rapids to Pontiac though is running almost $50. ONE WAY.... ugh. I need to get down there the 28th so I can spend time with her for a week. I will hitch a ride back with her cousin Brian at the end of the week. I hope Scott isn't at the party >,< because I will have to restrain myself from being evil. (I would glare and make it known his presence in my presence is very unwelcomed... I would also put laxitive in his food and hide the toilet paper... BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Other news in my life. Kyle, my moms boyfriend and I are fixing my car. This guy is cool so far. I haven't actually heard him angry or argumenative. He is really laid back and he works. He doesn't boast or brag. Infact he is a very to himself unless you talk to him or something to talk about comes up. I think he is shy which shows I'm intimidating. No one hurts my mom.... but so far, I like the guy and if things go well I can safely leave him here with my mom in less then a year.

Charity is back home. I would like to hang out with her but a point of mine I am trying to prove is Molly needs to get rid of these guys she is hanging onto because they "had" something with her. The only difference is Charity and I have NO phyisical or emotional attraction to each other. Her parents are my parents. Her brother is one of my closest and trusted friends. She is just there now. The only way she would be a threat to Molly is because time to time Charity tries to convince me Molly isn't the one for me and that I need to find a good christian girl. Before she left for college, my youth pastor took her and I out for pizza. That night we tied up any loose ends and made sure we were friends before she left. I for the first time looked at her in a whole different way then I ever did before. Even before I officially met her. In 8th grade she was a girl that was "hot". In High School she was my High School Sweet-Heart. When I looked at her that night I felt nothing. She was my sister. She would bump me while I was drawing a picture or punch me in the arm. What a sister would do to annoy her brother. And believe me... bumping me while I am drawing pisses me off... even if it's on a table mat. Grrr.... She is home and I know she is alive and doing well. She really wants me to visit her for a little bit, but I might avoid it because I know Molly doesn't appreciate the psuedo-hypocracy. Then again... I did tell her months ago I would go out to lunch with her somewhere. Either I am a semi-hypocrit, or a promise breaker. Aiy a dilema. Of course, Molly wins because I love her more then anything the world has to offer.

David has enlisted into the marines. Ugh WHY!? The marines are a bunch or morons. If he was going to join anything he should've atleast joined the army national guard. He is going to get screwed over. BOTH my parents were in the forces. Jared is in the forces. Friends families were. They all have said "Marines, WHAT THE HELL IS HE, STUPID!?" They told him the will pay for his car and cell phone bills, etc etc. And he thinks it is great that he gets 30 days a year off. What he has failed to realize is that when he is finally done, life isn't going to be easy and mostly paid for. If that was the case why are so many former marines working 3rd shift jobs trying to support their families? My mom served in full in the military and so did my dad. I am upper lower class/lower middle class. We struggle with money here more then anything. He is walking down a bad road. I wish I could change his mind. He could go straight to college right now paid for in full, but nooooooooo, he wants to join the marines? Last week I told Ryan he would be putting off college again this year. Ryan laughed. I was serious. This week, he calls me up and says "I've enlisted into the marines." *shakes head* And he is liberal. He will get a boot in the face a few times untill he learns to bite his tongue.

It's hard to believe it's bee two years since my eyes have opened to the beauty of the world. Two years ago this week I was struggling with my grasp on life and I almost lost it. I fell to my knee's pleading to God to help me. Now I live life like it's short and sweet. Mike and I had a really great talk tongiht and I rediscovered an intellectual, deep side of myself I had forgotten. I also realized why I get so upset at Molly when she bangs on my god. He gave me hope and he gave me her.

I can't wait till spring. I am going to show my secret spot to Molly. Only after the leaves have grown back and the wind blows. Then it's presentable.

A week from tonight and it's Christmas Eve. WOOT! I am excited. This year we are opening presents on Christmas Eve because sadly mom has to work on Christmas. *sigh* 5th year in a row I didn't get to spend Christmas with either one of my parents. I think I can safely blame that for my loss in Christmas spirit. I always feel so lonely this time of year. When I have kids, I will make sure I am there on Christmas because you have 18-19 Christmas' to spend with them before the feeling starts to change.

I forgot to mention a thank you last week to Heather. She sent me this really awesome Christmas card with her and her two cats on it. It was one of those cool pictures you get drawn at a fair. Big head, tiny body thing. I would send them out but it may be to late now. *sigh* Been so busy.

Well I am gonna go. I don't have much more on my mind right now except for the where abouts of my Van Helsing game. I let Bob borrow it but he says he thinks he left it here. So I have no idea where it is. I haven't even gotten a chance to play it yet either. Man that pisses me off... I had the movie, the cartoon and the game....

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