The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

The World... so cold.
Listening to:

I recently rediscovered my shell, and I forgot how comfortable I felt inside of it.

The world is full of evil, disappointments, let downs, broken trust and hate. Why fight it? There is no point to standing against it and trying to look over it all. There is no such thing as an easy life. Regardless of how easy someone looks like they have it, they are struggling, crying on the inside. They are worrying and with each second they worry, they widdle their life away. So what is the point of life if all it means is to worry yourself till one day you look back and wonder how you got so far along?

Krista did steal my graduation tassle. She called me and said she "Accidently took it." My Games are still missing. They are replacable. Almost. 2 of them are hard to find. One of those two are my friend Josh's games. To think I am at fault for this too. Over a year ago I befriended her, thinking I could help her. She had lot's of problems, and I was the friend who was always there to talk to her. I tried to get her to quit smoking, I believed everything she told me about her life back in Hartland. She told me she quit, but then I would catch her smoking or lying about not smoking when I smelt it on her. One day, she followed me to my class when I refussed to talk to her. As I sat at the computer, Zach and Charity next to me, she yelled and screamed at me to talk to her and that I can't be mad at her for hiding stuff and lying to me. Now I suppose she is right. To hide something or lie is the nature of the world we live in, and to be mad at someone for it is to be mad at the world right?

She moved back to Hartland, and she called all the time. I told my brother to tell her "He isn't home." or "He is in the shower, getting ready for work." that way I wouldn't have to talk to her. For a whole year I avoided her untill this last weekend. Don picked me up to go do wood duty at his house. She was on the step waiting for me there. I couldn't avoid it.

While working she wanted to make out with me and I said no. She wanted to know why I wouldn't and I told her it's because I had a girlfriend who I loved and would do anything for. I then turned my back to her and went back to work. I knew what she was trying to do. She even lives 5 minutes from Molly. She gets mad at me for not stopping at her house while I am down there. The thing that made her mad the most though was I didn't care. I was done even shedding any form of care for her. But I am to nieve and friendly. She asked if she could hang out for 2 hours with me, and I said I had a friend coming over to help me with my computer. As soon as she went to ask her mom I called Zach and said he had to come over. Not because I didn't trust myself with her, but because I knew she wouldn't try anything while he was there. I don't believe in putting oneself into a situation knowing what kind of risks you may be running. I knew she wanted me, and I knew she would do anything to do something with me. She made it clear in the past.

Blogged by Marcus Morris at 1:35 PM