The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

Labor Day Weekend
Listening to: Just One by Hoobastank

This weekend was the finishing point of my summer. I went camping with Molly, at the place I met her at one year ago yesterday.

Friday afternoon, Molly called me and told me she was getting dropped off here at my house. We spent a few hours alone together, and eventually went and got the car and drove to camp.

We show up and she introduced me to her family. It was mostly her moms side. There was her Uncle Pat, his wife Michelle, and their two boys Brian and Shawn. Brian and Shawn were older then me. Brian was a senior in college and Shawn was just recently married back in June I believe it was. His wife (Jessica?) was there also.

Brian was really cool. He is a frat boy at Michigan State and really smart. I guess he had all these thins he planned on doing to Molly's bf, who is me ofcourse, but said after meeting me, decided not to because I wasn't that bad. Him and I ended up staying up later then everyone else did and sat at the fire talking. We talked of all sorts of things. Molly, girls, computers, videogames, family, plans for the future and than there was a subject we both agreed on. Mark, Scott and Jon. I am so glad I am not alone in this war against these three but wow, does Jon not know what he is preping against him. Mark he really don't like. By the sounds of it, he doesn't know the things I know about Mark and if he did, he would murder Mark. >,< He then said he has Mark's AIM names (!!!!) but I forced myself to say "Don't give them to me... Molly doesn't want me to have them. So HA, there Molly. I did that for you. For your wishes, although I could've had the opportunity to tell Mark off instead of having to live with the knowledge that he told you no matter what he was going to try and win you back to him. Which will lead me to another subject AFTER I finish telling about camp. So let's move on. Overall, Brian was awesome. I hope to hang out with him again someday. Infact, I hope to have a videogaming session with him. That would roxor.

Camp was fun. Brian W. and his family showed up. I knew Brian would show even though he told me he wouldn't. I just had this feeling and I am glad he did. He left for college and I never got to say goodbye and hang out with him one last time. Granted he didn't stay.... *mumble bastard.... sleep in his own bed... mumble* Ross also showed up. So we had a lot of people there. Then there was Lily. The dog. The drooling sensation of middle Michigan. Could stain a pair of pants and one sniff. She was our nightly bark at the nothing in the middle of the night dog.

Saturday we went to the beach. We swam and tanned and swam some more. Although, I didn't understand Molly's mom this weekend. Molly would be sitting in a different chair and would put her feet up on my lap and Karen would get after her. Anything outside of hand holding and we were getting security checks. Out in the water Molly tackled me and her mom yelled. I dunno. It really put a damper on the weekend. I wasn't able to spend quality alone time or holding time with her. I felt like if I even let her hug me for more than 3 seconds then she would get in trouble. So I didn't. Which ended up getting me in trouble with her. She said I never hold her, and she got mad at me I don't know how many times this weekend, when all I was trying to do was keep her and I out of trouble and keep the relationship possible.

Sunday we again went to the beach. It was kinda cloudy and windy and cold so I brought phase 10 and I taught Molly how to play that. Then her cousin Brian watched us for one round and knew how to play (he is that smart... aiy...) so we all played a few games. I beat her second round *smirk* We eventually went swimming and then I bought her icecream again. I buy her icecream all the time. We went back to camp and played cards some more while talking and joking around. It was big dinner that night. Chicken and hot dogs and other things. Mmmm, I gained so much weight this weekend though. I am on a strict diet of one small thing every 6 hours tomorrow and no pop. Well, Wednesday is the pig roast so I will eat some there to help shoot my metabolism up. Molly doesn't want me to become skinny. Infact she prefers I be a big lumpy idiot like when she met. NEVER! I'M NEVER GOING BACK, EVER! I WANT TO BE SKINNY AND MUSCULAR AND I WILL ACCOMPLISH THIS!

Ah yes, and I really need to teach that women how to take a joke and not to take things so seriously. I was playing around with her and she got mad and ignored me. *rolls eyes* She said we were breaking up but I didn't buy it. I just dished out her treatment and ignored her "games" as I called them. I figured she would come around eventually. She always does.

Well, today I was sound asleep. The wind was blowing hard, and it was nice out, not cold, not hot. Perfect sleeping conditions for me. I love the wind. I was in a deep slumber and I didn't hear Molly come into my tent. She crawled in, and kissed me on the cheek. I smiled before opening my eyes because I knew those lips. I knew the smell. She crawled under the covers with me and we layed there for half an hour or so. Atleast we got to do that... Her Dad didn't care. Her Dad is really leaniant and according to Molly, really really likes me. ^_^ I just hope her mom likes me. But at the same time I know why she is the way she is. She just has to learn to let go. My mom did and now I can sit and smoke a cigar with my mom and play cards and curse and she doesn't care. I'm an adult in her eyes now.

It is really hard letting Molly go each time. I feel stronger with each time though because I always see her again. She says my hugs are not as tight. I have my reasons but that doesn't mean my love for her is anyless. Infact, since I met her one year ago yesterday, I love her 20x more then I did when I fell in love with her. I remember on Sunday we were walking and I made her stop and wrapped my arms around her and gave her a kiss. A deep passionate one. When she tried to start walking I pulled her back and kept giving her one. She said she doesn't know how I do it, but my kisses put her in a trance. I believe I am an excellent kisser because I have had so many girls from the past tell me I was one of the best. *dances* Morris +1!!!

Molly, I just want to let you know, today when we gave our goodbye hugs and kisses, I would've hugged you longer and kissed you harder but I didn't want your mom to go off. Out of respect of your family there I made it small and short. I love you more then ever.... and I promise you, I will componsate one day for all these short kisses. You know I will. Please don't believe your loosing me. I have those thoughts I told you about but thats the bad side of things working with the fear trying to convince me otherwise. If I am wrong then all my nightmares and premonitions are messages and connections of what is actually going on there. I just hope it's not. Even still I love you and I am willing to do this 3 hours, state-wide relationship because I believe you do love me and that you let no other guy come into play to fulfill your needs and lusts for me. I go without you for so long not just so that when you are here its even better, but because I do love you.

One year ago my friends... I met her. It's been the best year of my life.

Blogged by Marcus Morris at 5:38 PM