The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

Long time no update...
Listening to: Runaway Train by Soul Asylum

It's been the longest time since I have updated and there is to much to say. I guess that's what happens when you don't sit down for 20 minutes every few nights. It all adds up.

Ok, so I left off with me being at Joyce's I believe. The rest of that week was UberFun. Heather and Britt were really cool. We talked a lot about Vampires, and the Vampire Chronicals, and a lot of other things we have in common. Heather is 26 I believe, and Britt is 18. Heather seemed our age cause she was so down to earth. I had a great time though.

Molly came up for camp Minawaka. Don't bother correcting me on the spelling cause I don't care. I refer to it usually as Camp Minawhateva. She came up on a Friday. It was reviving. Heather and Britt wanted me to go out to Silver Lake with them that day, and I told them I couldn't because I was waiting for Molly to call me to let me know when and where to come and get her. They knew I would be going to the library that day to get Molly a book, so they left a letter there. All day they kept calling me wanting me to go with them. *laughs* What was great was when I went to the library, there was an "Urgent and Confidential" letter waiting for me signed Britheather Sheffbott. Apparently they combined their names and left me a letter talking about a Dowry with Britt. I had to ask Molly what a Dowry was >.< *laughs harder* She wanted to know why they were offering me a Dowry. I will miss those two >.<>.>) Afterwords, we all went out to ice Cream at the Cold Cow and filled up there. Brian and I brought her back to Grandma's so she could have dinner.

Monday was a terrifying day. Oh man alive…. I still am shaking cause of it. Grandma and Grandpa were going to a funeral. So Molly and I were going to go to see Spider Man 2. My boss let me use the Taures SES 2002 (I love that car… it will be mine next year) and I drove over to get her. She was still in bed when I got there. So I woke her up with a kiss and some cuddling. Well, the cuddling changed into more and Grandma and Grandpa came home >.> They weren't too happy with me being there but oh well. I was a nervous wreck all day. We left for the movie and when we got to Whitehall the movie was already started. So I did a Marco Polo and blindingly drove to Muskegon not knowing how to get to the movie theatre. GUESS WHAT! WE FOUND IT! It's a good thing I had Molly with me... I was so nervous and wrecked that I almost ran a stop sign on a busy road. The movie was great. Better then the first and it almost brought tears to my eyes. I WANNA BE SPIDER MAN! But, the stupid movie place fucked up.

We sat and watched the previews and all. Just then, what I thought was a really long Harry Potter Preview came on. Molly had seen the new Harry Potter and told me that was the actual start of the movie. Ugh…. I went out and complained and they said "Whooops, we forgot to change the reels." I was thinking "Yeah, it's kinda hard when the employees are prolly up there fucking..." They finally got the movie switched and this set us behind about 40 minutes… we got home late.

Tuesday was my Oval party. I will never go without sunscreen at the beach again. The party was lots of fun. So many people came and went. Joey and Kelley were there. Dave and Tina showed up for a while. So did Josh and Erin (who are now a couple!!!). My little cousin Cody and my older cousin Chris showed up with a few of his friends and his mom. Cody hung out with Molly and I all day. We swam, dried off in the scorching sun, swam, dried off, laid in the sun, walked to the store and bought Molly a Sobe, bought ice cream from the ice cream truck for Molly and Cody, and we laid and tanned some more. We played a lot of Frisbee too. Curt showed up. So did Nadine, Ika and Brian. Last summer, I had a party at the oval. That night, Kelly Schroeder had her birthday party there. Coincidence… she had it there the same night as my party this year too... I got burned bad... Really bad.

Wednesday was Nadine's birthday party. It was supposed to be at the Oval, so Dave, Tina, Molly and I went out there. It was sprinkling so no one was there. We jumped into lake Michigan then went to Nadine's. We watched Butterfly Effect and ate Pizza. Then, they started watching Ginger Snaps which caused Molly to react... I learned some interesting stuff that day, and now I have a reason to hate Mark. If you are reading this Mark... I will find a way to get a hold of you eventually... and threaten you with your life.

Thursday... WTF...? I know her and I did something…. But I can't recall what. Did she come over here? I think she did... but then again... didn't she come over Friday? Yeah, Friday she gave me this HUGE hickey. HUGE. My mom and Grandpa saw it. LOL. So did my Aunt. *snicker* Oh well. Chris thought it was a stretch mark o.O

Saturday was the Relay for Life. Heh... Molly and I spent the entire day Saturday together. We walked around town, playing at the playground hanging out at the Relay for Life, and I bought her some Reeses and another Sobe. The playground has this nice little area where you can make out too... heh heh heh. Dinner at Grandma and Grandpa's was great. They made Roast Beef and potatoes and corn and biscuits and carrots, and everything. MMMMmmmm. God I haven't eaten like that in forever.

After dinner, we went back to the Relay for Life and watched the Electric Wombats play (my teachers Mr. Wall, Isakson, and Lehman.) They played some awesome rock n roll and I think Molly enjoyed herself. We did the Relay for Death. It's where you walk backwards around the track (opposite the way everyone else is going.) We seen more people that way. Sadly... her dad brought me home that night, and her and I said our goodbyes... I didn't want to leave her. I love her so much and I am gonna miss her horribly. Especially in College which is only a few weeks away for me. She has school in less then a month too... *cries* Why does it have to be so hard... I guess it beats her and mark's old relationship though. In an old blog of hers I remember reading that she only sees him like every 5 months... (in between sneaking out to see him).

God, what I wouldn't give to just see that Guy be sent to Australia…. Out of my life.. and hers. *grumbles words and curses of complete hate and evil*

Anyways... that's my life and I guess I am forced to live it. If it ever starts to hurt to much, I know I can put an end to things causing the pain, but would I have the power too? My heart is so attached that it would be hard. I love Molly. I love her a lot. But I still don't understand why she lies to me all the time. Especially when it comes to other guys. Am I below them on the list? I must be, or it wouldn't happen... *sigh*

Damnit... this whole thing with Mark is eating me up inside. I had another dream about the bastard last night. In the dream, I was about ready to beat him down and he said words that pierced me... I won't dare repeating them because it hurts to much. I woke up in total panic. I looked at my clock and it read 1:45 in the afternoon. What a horrible night...

Before I close this entry, I would just like to say:

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DAVID!!! LET’S GO BUY SOME CIGARS AND LOTTERY TICKETS TONIGHT AND CELEBRATE!!!

Blogged by Marcus Morris at 3:59 PM