The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

Revived

Listening to: Clocks by Coldplay
After this weekend, I know for a fact that Molly has to be something special, somone special, to me. Sara, and Charity, and Brittany, they all broke my trust. To this day, I still don't trust any of them with my heart. But Molly... Molly is the first girl that took my heart, and crushed it, and even after knowing she lied to me, and betrayed me, I still look at her as the same girl I did before. I still love her with all my heart, if not more.

This weekend was an emotional revival for me. Last night, while laying in Molly's bedroom with her, the song Clocks came on, and I told her why that song makes me sad. Suddenly, she started bawling into my chest. I laid talking with her about the future, and how wonderful it is going to be, and why growing up has its advantages. Why I will always be there to take care of her, and pick her up when she falls. Its really strange... I have never felt this way... This is an all new feeling to me.

Molly did such a great job in her performance. She was Dorothy. She has such a beautiful voice too. I really have to hand it to Matt. He made the best scarecrow I have ever seen. He even sounded just like the one from the movies and danced like he was made of straw. But, I have to say the best part was Lauren, who played Todo. I can't wait to have kids. She was so adorable. I bought Molly a rose, because they were selling flowers there, and after the performance, I walked up behind her, wrapped my arms around her and put the rose infront of her. She turned around and wrapped her arms around me tightly. The whole time with her, all I could do is look into her eyes and search her for truth. Remember what I said about me looking into peoples eyes? I could just tell she loved me.

I woke up at 7:30 am to Molly stroking my forehead. That feeling, those moments will never get old... So we laid in bed for an hour together. Eventually everyone else got up and we did too. I took a shower, and quickly shaved, cutting myself 8 times. I havent cut myself shaving in close to a year... Molly and I talked about a lot this weekend... and she is coming up in 5 days to stay here, for Prom. I will post some pictures of her as soon as I get the time to scan them... stupid MEAPs are tomorrow, and that is gonna put a jam on the computer rooms in the school... dang it all... what will i do without a computer?

I miss her... and she has my sweater and my senior key. So I bet she misses me a lot. I have one thing of hers though.. Its her Devil Duckie. Diabloso or something like that. He stares at me from my monitor now. *narrows eyes* I'm watching you...

Oh... I gave Molly a foot massage last night. She never lets anyone touch her feet, and I gave her a lotion massage between the toes and everyhting. Then I gave her a back massage, and we showed Brian how bras are connected because the poor guy can never get them undone. Last night I picked her up off the couch, carried her up the stairs and laid her in her bed. I pulled the blankets up for her, closed her closet, and picked up her room for her, before I kissed her goodnight, shut the lights off and walked out, shuting her door behind me.

I love her family... her dad is great. He drives the car I want for college too. Her mom loves her to death, so she is very protective of her, thats understandable. Grandma and Grandpa are great too. And Brians family love me. I fit in so well there... now, she needs to fit in well here... My famly is a bunch of squawbling, lower middle class democrats who have a quick tongue and a large appitite. Oh boy... 5 days till the Apocolypse.

Bah, and I am not gonna bother with the whole David prank thing. Let's just say we put something in his smoothies...

That was off topic. Anyways. Molly is really wonderful. If you want to read what she wrote, click here.

Good night everyone.

Sleep well, I know I will.

Blogged by Marcus Morris at 10:54 PM