The Journey Is More Important Than The Beginning Or The End.

Second Beginings

Well, here is the first actual entry in my blog. I would've posted one long ago, but didn't. The story behind why:

I live in the country. For you city people who don't know what that is, it's away from civilazation. Peaceful yes, technology, well, sort of. See, out here in the ... boonies, we get Satalite. No Cable. So that means no Cable internet. But, Direct TV is gay and won't subscribe this area to DSL either. Baka. So that means I am stuck with Dial-Up. *grumbles* and to make it worse, the phone lines out here are smaller too. In town they are 56k, but out here, they are like 28k. Can you see my frustration with lack of browsing speed.

I decided instead of trying to burn stuff to CD's from my friend Davids house, (who by the way has Cable) I would just bring my hard drive there, and connect it as a slave drive, transfer all the files to it, then bring it home and hook it back up. Right now I am going to emphasize how big of a fag William S. Gates is. Davids Windows XP partitioned (made its own section on) part of my hard drive. I have Win98 SE. Windows XP wiped out some of my .DLL (a file windows uses to run something) and was trying to run on my hard drive. So, my hard drive was now officially dying of what I would like to call XP Cancer. Windows runs with files knows as FAT32, and XP uses NTFS. I have no idea what exactly they do, but I know it's possible to convert FAT32 to NTFS, but not the other way around.

Then, a few nights ago, I was trying to fix my computer. I shut it down and went to bed. The next day, Nothing appeared on my screen. I concluded that my monitor took an Osama Religion and Mad Cowed on me. So now I was monitorless too. Fricken *&(*&^#&*^$()*@#()*. I stole my moms monitor, and David and I worked for hours trying to repair my computer. We got windows to run well enough to burn all my stuff to CD's. I forget 2 things though... My songs I composed and wrote about Molly, and my Composing Programs. Inspiration is always better the second time around though, I wasn't worried about the songs, she knows I love her. The programs I will just download and crack em. BUT, when I reformatted my computer, and was installing everything back onto it, I realized I lent my Norton Anti-Virus 2003 to my friend Jared, who around 2 months ago, moved to Battle Creek, 3 hours away. Then I realized that My Cd with all my programs (such as WinZip, Yahoo Messenger, RPG Maker, etc etc) was also missing. I have the slightest what happened to that. Last night, I had to write a list of all the things I needed to download and burn in Tech Club today. So, for the most part, FDP is back. I am still trying to get things back to normal.

But, I am not the only one with this problem. The day David and I fixed my computer, he went home, and his computer screwed itself over with a 98-XP partition. The thing being though, was he had windows 98 and WinXP on one Hard Drive. It just went dumb... Long story.

Now that I am back online, I really can't wait to talk to Molly, and she hasn't been online yet as far as I know... God I miss her. I wish I could see her, and hold her. To kiss her again would lift all this stress away, and make me happy. When Christmas comes around, I always feel really lonely. I think it is the fact that Charity and I started going out on Dec 23. That made Christmas wonderful to me. Last year I hated Christmas. We didn't get much. I got two video games, and socks I believe. Justin and my mom made an empty promise to get us more a few weeks later, but when it came to that time Justin said it was BS. Charity hated me. It was her goal to make my life miserable, and it was the loneliest, coldest Christmas ever. My favorite holiday probably is Christmas. It's a time of love, peace, giving, appreciation, and you can sense God at everyturn. The music warms me, the thoughts of Hot Chocolate and the one I love sitting in front of a fire under a blanket. Decorations, and the TV specials that you watched as a kid. My memories as a kid were wonderful. I was happy, well, untill school.... Does anybody else feel that way about Christmas? My Christmas wish this year, is to see Molly, and spend just a day atleast with her on Xmas break. Mom told us she has to work Xmas. She works 6am-6pm. This will be the first Xmas without her. She told me we would have a Christmas in January together. That sadens me. My last Xmas at home really, and it's not Xmas. I will sleep in, and wait till around 5 for Xmas dinner at Gma and Gpa's Please god, give me at least my Christmas wish. That's all I want to make my Xmas season a good one!

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